Remember how it feels when the first time in your life you’ve given your all and although you missed your goal, you’re happy that you’ve given your 100%? Seeing a sudden surge of happy memories in your head now? :)
Try to remember. We all have that at least once in our life.
It’s an addicting feeling, right? Because somehow you’ve felt living life to its fullest. . .
My memory of my first 100% effort is when I gave my all to be the top one student in our class back in my freshman days in high school. For the longest time back in elementary, I’d been competing with my classmates to get the top position. I failed all the time. I love learning and I’m grateful for all the things that I’ve learned in elementary but being the top achiever in class was like something that’s been an elusive trophy for me. I tried hard. Really hard. A pathetically trying hard kid. It was fun and competition was a highly encouraged culture in elementary schools back then. However, no matter how hard I tried, I failed to get the top spot in Elementary.
So I promised myself that once we enter high school, I’d make it sure that I would dominate the competition. And so I did. I can still remember how hard I tried to take all in the lessons from our teachers. I studied hard. I put so much pressure on myself that everytime my mom would ask me to do house chores, I resented her.
Lo and behold, at the end of the school year, I made it to the top :) Although there was a minor glitch because one of the teachers there bullied me in front of the class, I f^ck!ng still made it. (So yeah Sir, if you still remember me, I’d be happy to bust your ass now that I’m a grown up .|. Yep, I still remember you :P You’re forgiven but never forgotten )
After freshman year, I struggled again to maintain the position and graduated on the 4th spot of the class. Welp, shit happened.
So after that short episode of “success” as a freshman in high school, I felt that I no longer experience nor exert the same focus that I had done back then. I find it so hard to maintain the same degree of discipline to accomplish my goals. Does it come with age?
Back in college, I almost graduated with Latin honors. Alas, I have four 3s (means 75%) grades in my three 3-unit subjects and one elective subject; Two math subjects, one computer subject and one foreign language class. It sucks until now! LOL If I have had done my job well, I would have graduated as cum laude. It’s a shiny thing in a resume (but good thing I’m a freelancer now and freelance work doesn’t need Latin honors at all. :))
The thing is, when you keep giving a mediocre effort in your endeavors in life, you will also keep getting a mediocre result. That’s just a fact of life. Hardly arguable.
Until now, I still struggle with giving all that I can in everything that I do. I feel that I’ve been robbing myself of the greatness that I could have been. I feel that the failure that I’ve endured are all from my self-sabotaging mindset. There’s always a continuous cycle of guilt that haunts me in my sleep and knocks me out even before I get up in the morning. So today, I would like to share with you the things that I’ve realized with this bad habit.
You’ll Get Used to It
Yes, once you start not giving your 100%, it will be harder for you to push yourself to get back to that level of focus in your game. It’s a bad habit to start. It’s like a labyrinth. It’s like being lost in a familiar forest which offers you strange gut feeling that you know you’ll find your way home yet you feel there’s a part of you still missing.
It’s like you’ll never know how it feels to give your 100% anymore. A habit that will destroy the “culture” of greatness in you. You will never have the same desire to succeed in all you do. You’ll become too complacent that you’d always rely on second chances. It will never let you achieve your fullest potential. It’s a sedative to get you by. To exist and not to live.
You Will Regret It
Regrets are the demons of our could-haves and should haves. It’s like a paralyzing potion that immobilizes us to see and face the “now” of our lives. You can only conquer this by giving your all and by being determined to be restless to do everything you can. So when that time comes where you have to lie in your deathbed, you know you don’t have an unfinished business that will never be resolved.
You’ll Get By but You’ll Never Really Win
The worst part about not giving your 100% is the fact that most often than not, you’ll get by in life. Surprisingly, you will eventually move forward even with a very disappointing phase. Worse is you feel that’s good enough for you. However, it’s unfortunate to know that this kind of mindset will not truly build that “real” person that you ought to be. It will only function as the band-aid that you need for the moment but you will feel that there’s always something missing. Tragically, you’ll never know that missing part of you because you have gotten used to just getting by.
Find it in your heart to do all that you can in whatever you do. Always ask yourself, “Is this all I got”? Go beyond what you think you can do. There’s a greater you waiting to be unleashed. It’s all up to you if to become deserving of that greatness. Never let the lion sleep in the cave of your mediocrity.
As for me, I’m reforming myself to get used to doing all that I can to achieve specific goals. I know it’s going to be tough but there’s no better way to do it than the hard way!
Can you relate to this post? When was the last time you know you gave your all?
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