May 18-24, 2014 (Regularly Published on Sundays)
What actions have I done to achieve my long-term goals in different aspects of my life this week?
None, I feel that I completely failed this week. A series of depression has overtaken me and I’m just recouping from the internal crash. Sometimes, my source of motivation backfires and affects me in a very negative way. The motivation becomes the pressure that I have to carry on my shoulder and when it hits that level all I do is procrastinate. Though I feel that this week is a major setback for the month of May, I feel that I’ve reaffirmed to myself my priorities and I’m not giving up those priorities because those are my dreams.
What actions do I want to maintain to sustain my progress last week?
For this coming week, I just want to focus on the tasks and goals I set last week, keep my cool, and just get things done.
What are the setbacks affecting my goals? What are the aspects of my life I’m having problem with and my plan of action?
One of the causes of my failure this week is the fact that I accepted a type of project that I shun – ghostwriting. I don’t think that ghostwriting is for me anymore. I feel so unmotivated delivering the output that the client need. In fact, up to this very moment, I haven’t delivered the article. I have many reasons not to do it but I know I should have had not accepted it in the first place. The hesitation also causes me writer’s block. This week I have to finish the article.
Due to this “unwanted” assignment, I’ve procrastinated on my other goals this week. The writing task has eaten most of my time. I also missed to publish daily blog post for my 100 Day Blogging Challenge so I’m starting from Day 1 again >_< I hate it! Also, I have to pay the 5-day penalty.
I’ve mentioned before about creating a machine that will help you to achieve your long term goals. I already built the machine that will help me to produce my desired output in the long run but it seems that it’s not running well. For me, my machine is my daily routine and schedule. I have to reduce the friction that makes it inefficient and add some more lubricant and bearings to achieve better performance. I have to admit that I struggle with procrastination and episodic depression. I’ve been fighting these two demons for many years and it‘s been a bloody war. I’d like to believe that most of the time I win the battles that’s why I progress little by little. Somehow, training for MMA has helped me to ingrain to my system the discipline and grit to win my battles. I love the way I endure the pain and hone my discipline through MMA training. To think that I just started last year and reaping great results, I believe that I’ve made the right decision in committing to this sport.
What were my goals last week that I haven’t achieved/accomplished? Should I add it to this coming week’s list of goals?
I fail to accomplish all of my goals last week so I need to add them this week. Actually, I have to focus on that set of goals alone for this week.
What are the things that I want to achieve this coming week that will make me feel happy and fulfilled?
As mentioned, I just need to focus on my last week’s goals.
Did I achieve all the goals I set last week? If No, what happened? What went wrong? Did I achieve my goals last week? If Yes, how did I do it?
No, I did not.
What’s my extra mile for this week?
Nope, I just need to focus on my deliverables.
What I’m grateful for this week?
- I’m grateful that my client is patient about the article that I failed to submit on time.
- I’m also grateful for my girlfriend for helping me out and supporting me eternally even in my darkest days.
- I’m also happy that I had a time spend with my family. We watched a MMA match.
What could I have done better?
I could have focused on being professional and just deliver the output needed. I hate it when I give a bad impression to a client. Put’s me in bad light.
One lesson for this week.
Motivation is good but I have to keep it in moderation. I have the tendency to overly motivate myself and as a result stress myself.
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